So God works through all sorts of things.  I must say be careful what you ask for.  I needed him to show me what his will was.  Well I was feeling angry and frustrated and just down right hurt.  Well actually I still feel that way.  But today in church God talked to me through the words of a hymn, his word and my brother.  So when someone hurts you that you love you must fogive and not hold it against them.  You must also let them know and not hold it in.  God lead me to 1 Cor. 13 the love chapter I think I only read about three versus and had to stop bc my eyes were veiled with tears bc I was not acting in love in reguards to a sistuation.  I still do not know how to deal with it but  I know that anger is wrong and that I really was nopt angry just hurt and didn't want to show it bc that meant I was not invincible and in control.  GUESS WHAT we are not in control! ONLY GOD IS!  Okay Even after a two hour chat with my brother I know not what I am to do.  Many things I could do but they are all hard and come with consequences that I must think about bc I will have to live with them.

On a happier not I love the school I am student teaching at.  The students make my day even if they try to avoid work and act out to preserve themselves.  They teach me that I do not know everything and that we can all live up to our potential if some one believes in us and reminds us of that.  What a world to be growing up in today.  The generations of children coming up today need God more than ever.  Satan is stepping up his forces against the undecided.  He is bringing doubt to the weaker Christians minds.  Fight him by praying to God, praising God, and sharing God's love.  Support your fellow Christians.  Set up an army for God and arm them with his word!  I am going to be helping with the AWANA program at church.  Pray that God's will is done and that my actions show his love and concern for all the children.  I must go now and write some lessons take care. Thank you MAX.

Have you ever felt that you just woke up and relised that you really were living your life?  Well I must admitt I have had that feeling many times in my life.  Lately I think I have just been going through the motions of living. I have not really cared if no one had talked to me, hungout with me or anything.  I believe that during this time satan and God have been fighting for a place in my life.  I was content with just living day to day and yet there were times that I had some nagging feeling that I should be doing more than what I was doing.  Maybe you see my retreating from the world as a form of depression maybe it is.  I only know that I want so much and yet I know that the only thing that matters is God.  So why do I have to stay on this Earth?  Can't we all just be in heaven singing praises and talking with God.  I know we can't because evil (sin ) reared it's ugly head in the garden of eden way back when! 

Today is the last day of the month.  What have you done this month for God, for another person?  Who have you shared the gospel with?  Does your best friend know Christ?  What is your fate tomorrow if Christ came back?  An aquaintance recently said that it matters not what religion you are or what version of the bible you read.  It is all about the relationship you have with Christ.  SO I Guess the real question the only question you should worry about is WHAT IS MY RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST?  Is it one of belief like the devil believes, is it one of faith that Christ has taken all sins to hell and left them there so you could accept his love and share in his inheritance?  If you have that relationship with him what have you done with it?  Have you been a lliving testimony of Christ's love?  Can a person look at you and see God? 

Why do we own so much?  Isn't it all God's to begin with?  I am not innocent of owning things.  I say my books, my bible, my my mymymymymymymymymymymymy!!!!  If I were God I would take it all away.  Thankfully he has more patients with me than that. 

Forgive my rambling but that is what came out when I sat down at the computer today.  I pray that God is keeping you all safe.  Remember that God will never put youthrough something you and he can't handle.  God Bless you all .